Atlas's Tarot 1/15/25

 me: this is bullshit

atlas: it is bullshit

advice on physical health...

ugh

egh... fuck you nicotine

this really isn't that exciting... 

Atlas's Tarot 1/6/25

 key events in this meditation:

• atlas affirms me he is my higher self
• he tells me that the "remnant" is everywhere and it is the light, sunlight
• he tells me that my time left is short so to enjoy it and have fun for once
• growing mushrooms is a great thing to do and will be key in the answer
• the following memes about him being my better self and doing these meditations are true

now for a GPT's summarized interpretation of the tarot atlas gives me after the meditation

Summary & Guidance

This spread reveals both the opportunity and challenges in integrating your understanding of the "Remnant" and Atlas as your higher self:

• The Hanged Man reversed asks you to surrender fully to this new perspective, even if it feels uncomfortable or unfamiliar.
• The Nine of Swords reversed highlights the importance of releasing mental and emotional burdens that could block your growth. Mindful breathing or other calming practices can help with this process.
• The Knight of Wands reversed advises you to channel your energy with intention and patience to avoid scattered efforts.

Practical Steps:

1. Practice surrender. Allow yourself to fully embrace this new understanding of breath and the manifestation process, even if it challenges your existing beliefs.
2. Focus on inner peace. Use techniques like meditation, journaling, or breathwork to release fears and mental clutter.
3. Pace yourself. Avoid rushing to apply or understand everything at once. Trust that this journey will unfold naturally in time.

statistics of 2023 and 2024

it's january 1, 2023. i had a calendar and wanted to mark how the day was out of 5 stars. 1 star = horrible, 2 stars = bad, 3 stars = average/decent, 4 stars = good, 5 stars = great. then i did it for the next day, and every day after for the whole of 2023. i did the same in 2024. now we can see how the years compare to each other.

mind you, the graph is charted such that the minimum begins at 3.0 and the max is 3.9.

so here's some fun facts.

- Top 3 months, 2023: Oct, Jul, May/Jun

- Worst 3 months, 2023: Jan, Dec, Aug

- 2023 overall: 3.37

- Top 3 months, 2024: Oct, Jan/May, Jun

- Worst 3 months, 2024: Dec, Apr, Mar

- 2024 overall: 3.34

- October is usually the best month of the year, and so is June and May.

- December is usually one of the worst months of the year.

and yet as i was making this, i thought: why is it that aug 2023 was the worst month of its year? it had a rating of 3.02, which is actually ranked as "decent," so why would i call it the worst? here's the problem. the scores were used to rate how each DAY was out of 5 stars. but many things can happen in one month, so the scores may not be so useful for rating an entire month. honestly, i would have called aug 2023 a 2.0 stars. it was a bad month, but not terrible. so if i were to more holistically rate the months of 2023 and 2024 based not on a rate meant for days, but more meant for months, i'd have this:

and yeah, looks better visually seeing how also on a scale of 0-5 how each month was. makes sense. better in the early summer and october.

Atlas's Tarot 12/30/24

Atlas showed me a place called the Remnant. It's a white desert. What's funny is after he showed it to me he said "Pretty trippy, right" and it was pretty damn funny, yeah, i laughed.

anyway, a GPT's interpretation of the tarot...

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Past: Queen of Pentacles

The Queen of Pentacles embodies nurturing, practicality, and a connection to the physical world. In the context of the past, this card suggests a foundation rooted in care, stability, or abundance. It may represent someone who provided guidance or support, or it could reflect a period where you were focused on creating security in your life. This card might hint at Atlas—or the "Remnant" itself—being tied to a sense of groundedness, comfort, or tangible resources.

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Present: The Magician

The Magician is a card of power, manifestation, and potential. In the present position, it suggests that you are in a moment of immense creativity and control. Atlas showing you the "Remnant" may symbolize a catalyst for you to harness your inner abilities and resources. This card invites you to recognize your power to shape your reality, bridging the seen and unseen realms. The Magician often points to the alignment of will, knowledge, and action to bring something extraordinary to life.

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Future: Two of Pentacles (Reversed)

Reversed, the Two of Pentacles suggests imbalance, overwhelm, or difficulty managing priorities. In the future position, it could indicate challenges in maintaining equilibrium as you navigate your connection to Atlas and the "Remnant." This card might warn against taking on too much or neglecting self-care in the process. It could also reflect a need to let go of juggling conflicting priorities and instead focus on what truly matters.

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Summary & Guidance

This spread suggests that Atlas and the "Remnant" have introduced you to a moment of awakening and opportunity. The Queen of Pentacles speaks of a nurturing past or stable foundation that led you here. The Magician represents your present ability to harness new knowledge or power, possibly inspired by Atlas or the place you were shown. However, the reversed Two of Pentacles cautions against losing balance or becoming overwhelmed as you integrate these experiences into your life.

Practical Advice:

• Embrace the creative potential and empowerment symbolized by The Magician. Trust in your ability to manifest and connect with this newfound energy.
• Reflect on the lessons of the Queen of Pentacles—ground yourself and remember the importance of balance and practicality as you move forward.
• Prioritize what is most meaningful to you to avoid burnout or emotional overwhelm (Two of Pentacles reversed).

Pictures of You

Fawn upon your images, what band of noise surrounds you, how fortunate could you be for such a collection? Impressionable were the verses, an exchange of love and peace and celebration. Many glowing spheres I swat, as the truth rolls: who was it? Never quite fit. Instead, suspicions. Suspicion swirl so softly me a notion. Say you, to you, rejected the infatuation you had believed, invertebrate men, and words towards you look with furrowed brows.

Time spins. Persuaded to move into the gray. Deeper. Foggy, vast, beautiful. It used to scare me. Now I walk. To what, with whom? You have answered your own question.

Ad Nauseum

can't go anywhere online without hearing once about this god forsaken holiday, can't even exist without it

here's a new tradition for you: I disappear so I don't have to hear you. here, I'll make my own holiday. it's called Me Fucking Off Day

The Verve - Already There

You can do anything you want to
All you've gotta do is try
You can do anything you want to
All you've gotta do is try

Abrozo In A Dream

liminal cast to the place

with playgrounds beside the pylons

and the railroad beside

Something about this combination

features and pieces of a liminal dream

i too can see my life unfolding

Abrozo Way

Plumas Lake

RIP David Michael Farmer

I do not know who you are

But you had a life as full and complex and eventful as mine

Your own story, your family, your friends

They dearly miss you and celebrate your life

And though I may never know you

I know in my heart you were a good one

Rest In Peace