Evil

Tell me that I'm evil
Tell me that I've lost my way
And left you far behind

Tell me what I've done wrong
Tell me all the stupid things
That beat against your heart

Tell me oh, what a shame
Tell me that I'm good as gone

I can't blame you for
Forgetting me
I am evil  

good night 11/29

When the days bring nothing new

And the sound of laughter makes you sick

And snide

You know you've got the jitters

Humidifier

Dama dama this solar EMP

Gold in their neighborhoods

With pylon crucifix speared the land

Suburban daydreams shall plane

Delightful creature of shade

Shed his ink

Paths for alternate futures

I see it become tangible

Sent from days torn between

Restless hands or ugly body

But perhaps this one catch the sun

"Call me the sun"

tarot 11/29/24

 Thank you for sharing the cards. Let’s dive into each one, looking at how they might reflect the past, present, and future energies in your relationship with your fiancée. This spread suggests a dynamic of communication, ambition, and resilience, but with the reversal of each card, it’s highlighting some underlying tensions, hesitations, and possible misunderstandings. Let’s look more closely.

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### **Past: Page of Swords Reversed**

In the past position, the **Page of Swords reversed** suggests that there may have been miscommunications or misunderstandings in your relationship, or times when communication was less than straightforward. Perhaps there were moments where curiosity and excitement gave way to nervousness, doubt, or overthinking, leading to hesitation in speaking openly. This card can sometimes indicate someone wanting to express themselves but holding back out of fear of conflict, criticism, or even insecurity. 

This may have created a pattern where ideas were left unspoken, or assumptions were made without clarity. Reflecting on this, it might be worth considering if there’s any lingering uncertainty from past miscommunications that needs to be cleared up to move forward with a stronger foundation.

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### **Present: Page of Wands Reversed**

In the present position, the **Page of Wands reversed** suggests a sense of restlessness or frustration in the relationship’s current stage. While there’s certainly potential and passion between you, there may be challenges around channeling this energy in a shared direction. Perhaps either of you has dreams or plans that feel put on hold, or you’re both experiencing a moment where enthusiasm for certain future plans feels a bit stifled.

This card’s appearance here could be nudging you to examine any unexpressed desires, ambitions, or small frustrations within the relationship. Sometimes it appears as a reminder to reignite excitement through shared goals or creative endeavors, bringing fresh energy into your connection. Now might be a good time to check in with each other’s dreams and explore how you can support and encourage each other’s aspirations.

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### **Future: Seven of Wands Reversed**

In the future position, the **Seven of Wands reversed** suggests that there may be challenges ahead that could make one or both of you feel vulnerable or uncertain. This card, when reversed, often reflects a sense of being overwhelmed, as if the usual confidence in handling issues or standing your ground feels compromised.

Looking ahead, this card is encouraging you both to prepare for moments when it will be necessary to stand together as a team, especially if external pressures or differing opinions from others come into play. This may be a call to work on strengthening your support for one another, setting boundaries as a couple, and nurturing your connection so that when challenges do arise, you can approach them feeling grounded and unified.

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### **In Summary**

The combination of these cards invites both reflection and intention-setting as you move forward together:

- **Past (Page of Swords Reversed):** Consider revisiting any past misunderstandings or communication habits that may benefit from clarification or closure.

- **Present (Page of Wands Reversed):** Focus on bringing fresh excitement into the relationship. Open up about any feelings of stagnation and explore new ways to inspire and support one another’s passions.

- **Future (Seven of Wands Reversed):** Prepare to navigate potential challenges with resilience and teamwork. Building trust and a shared sense of resilience can help you face future obstacles from a place of strength.

In this reading, the cards gently emphasize the importance of open communication, mutual support, and collaboration. With conscious effort in these areas, you both can enter a future with increased understanding, passion, and resilience.

Death and Taxes

One felt fear, uncertainty, anger. The other felt determination, cocky. Yet the words were extremely difficult to counter. Perhaps the greatest challenge that lasted for days. Taxing for the other. Though after time, defenses fall. The one is calmer. At least it seems so. Now the other chokes in the aftermath. Draining color like a siphon. Sulk, taxed by the emotional challenge. Is it really a victory?

idea for an OC

 this is an idea i got for an oc after changing the analog clock in my workplace. i paid attention to the hands of the clock. it always seemed a bit interesting when the hands of the clock were aligned opposite to one another, forming a 180 degree angle as a straight line, then again when the hands overlapped one another.

"Teleharmonic"

180 degrees (hands opposite)

1. 00:32:44

2. 01:38:11

3. 02:43:38

4. 03:49:05

5. 04:54:33

6. 06:00:00

7. 07:05:27

8. 08:10:55

9. 09:16:22

10. 10:21:49

11. 11:27:16

12. 12:32:44

13. 13:38:11

14. 14:43:38

15. 15:49:05

16. 16:54:33

17. 18:00:00

18. 19:05:27

19. 20:10:55

20. 21:16:22

21. 22:21:49

22. 23:27:16

"Paraharmonic"

360/0 degrees (hands overlap)

1. 00:00:00

2. 01:05:27

3. 02:10:55

4. 03:16:22

5. 04:21:49

6. 05:27:16

7. 06:32:44

8. 07:38:11

9. 08:43:38

10. 09:49:05

11. 10:54:33

12. 12:00:00

13. 13:05:27

14. 14:10:55

15. 15:16:22

16. 16:21:49

17. 17:27:16

18. 18:32:44

19. 19:38:11

20. 20:43:38

21. 21:49:05

22. 22:54:33