Friday, July 18, 2025

this camping trip is shit

Nothing but constant discomfort. 

It's not like I wanted or asked to be here. the only reason I'm here is because it's my brother's birthday and it's one of the extremely rare times our family is going to be together all at once. 

So here's my designated bitching and whining: no privacy, little comfort, too hot, too humid, too much noise. I can never take air conditioning for granted again.

It's been too long since I lived in a home. Not just some house or dorm or stint for a few months or whatever—a bona fide home. A place of comfort and safety where I've made many happy memories. But I haven't had it since I left Connecticut in January 2021. Four and a half years of not having a place I can truly call home.

Wednesday, July 9, 2025

Census

 i will call you the census

we may swim cross the fog

and blink for moments seemed

thin and vaporous and twine

curling in a peculiar smoke


flattest lies this plane

of great green and gold leaves

that penetrates the eyes

as it feels an ocean you


beautiful and spinning

what formless shapes can i release

from parted lips that say

this will destroy you


to find heaven in the sun

may be another dimension

into greatest transcendental

for something like self-census

Wednesday, July 2, 2025