The Neutral Ending

I remember this song fondly. It reminds me of Connecticut. That was a time when I was in a place I could properly call a home. My most fond memories. The events of my life who made me who I am. It moves me and brings me to tears because as I picture in my head driving through all of the places I used to be, all of the locations I've passed countless times, I think: I will have this again.

I want another Connecticut. A place where I get to lay down my roots and start a home again. A place where I will stay for a long time. A place that will shape who I am for the better. And when I'm done here, in this wretched place, I will have my life back. It will be the single most rewarding time of my life when I am gone from the place that hard taken so much from me (yet has given me much as well). 

I will get to experience this sensation with the one I love most. My life will dramatically change and look nothing like it used to. I will cry. I will smile. I will be greater than anything I ever have been. I will take my life back. And that will know I am being alive in the greatest life I could ever have.