5 months later...

wtf are you doing here

Orbits

Atop the wires

My orbits aimed at the disk

Heats me to soft death

Haze be scattering

Like the clouds I spray over

Disk cradles gently

At last be asleep

I ride out to who knows when

Passed by with smiles

Seer

Sacred in silence after your roam

O'er lands flooded

Reflections sliced under

Stare into your visions

They will join me

Witness the greatest absence

superstitions

left ear rung at 3:09 am

it's 5 am where he is & he's probably awake getting ready to go 

I wouldn't be surprised he is talking about me 

the preparations and the checklist I made that we went over 

Ride

Thrills upon which you ride

Joys electric and whimsical

Shall carry you to a lake

Where geese cry

And waves mirror a hue above

Though your time is numbered

Remain and feel happy

And it will soon be with two

He shall move and you will say

"Come here"

the answer

https://open.spotify.com/track/0kEBYD0sMCPtsfpwFLG9aj?si=IJs06e2IThWu7fh6dBoU8A

it all makes sense. this is what makes me feel free, happy.

Get the bike. 

Atlas's Tarot 1/15/25

 me: this is bullshit

atlas: it is bullshit

advice on physical health...

ugh

egh... fuck you nicotine

this really isn't that exciting... 

Atlas's Tarot 1/6/25

 key events in this meditation:

• atlas affirms me he is my higher self
• he tells me that the "remnant" is everywhere and it is the light, sunlight
• he tells me that my time left is short so to enjoy it and have fun for once
• growing mushrooms is a great thing to do and will be key in the answer
• the following memes about him being my better self and doing these meditations are true

now for a GPT's summarized interpretation of the tarot atlas gives me after the meditation

Summary & Guidance

This spread reveals both the opportunity and challenges in integrating your understanding of the "Remnant" and Atlas as your higher self:

• The Hanged Man reversed asks you to surrender fully to this new perspective, even if it feels uncomfortable or unfamiliar.
• The Nine of Swords reversed highlights the importance of releasing mental and emotional burdens that could block your growth. Mindful breathing or other calming practices can help with this process.
• The Knight of Wands reversed advises you to channel your energy with intention and patience to avoid scattered efforts.

Practical Steps:

1. Practice surrender. Allow yourself to fully embrace this new understanding of breath and the manifestation process, even if it challenges your existing beliefs.
2. Focus on inner peace. Use techniques like meditation, journaling, or breathwork to release fears and mental clutter.
3. Pace yourself. Avoid rushing to apply or understand everything at once. Trust that this journey will unfold naturally in time.

statistics of 2023 and 2024

it's january 1, 2023. i had a calendar and wanted to mark how the day was out of 5 stars. 1 star = horrible, 2 stars = bad, 3 stars = average/decent, 4 stars = good, 5 stars = great. then i did it for the next day, and every day after for the whole of 2023. i did the same in 2024. now we can see how the years compare to each other.

mind you, the graph is charted such that the minimum begins at 3.0 and the max is 3.9.

so here's some fun facts.

- Top 3 months, 2023: Oct, Jul, May/Jun

- Worst 3 months, 2023: Jan, Dec, Aug

- 2023 overall: 3.37

- Top 3 months, 2024: Oct, Jan/May, Jun

- Worst 3 months, 2024: Dec, Apr, Mar

- 2024 overall: 3.34

- October is usually the best month of the year, and so is June and May.

- December is usually one of the worst months of the year.

and yet as i was making this, i thought: why is it that aug 2023 was the worst month of its year? it had a rating of 3.02, which is actually ranked as "decent," so why would i call it the worst? here's the problem. the scores were used to rate how each DAY was out of 5 stars. but many things can happen in one month, so the scores may not be so useful for rating an entire month. honestly, i would have called aug 2023 a 2.0 stars. it was a bad month, but not terrible. so if i were to more holistically rate the months of 2023 and 2024 based not on a rate meant for days, but more meant for months, i'd have this:

and yeah, looks better visually seeing how also on a scale of 0-5 how each month was. makes sense. better in the early summer and october.